let’s be.

let’s be love letters
written to broken hearts
with words of kindness, of grace,
of hope.
let’s be love songs
that play over and over,
that echo in every soul.
let’s be shoulders to lean on,
open wide arms,
open wide hearts.
let’s be lights
that lead each other home.

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something beautiful.

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make your life
something beautiful.
something filled with watercolor
sunsets and sunrises and bits of magic
and smiles
and uncontainable laughter.
make your life
something beautiful
and fill it with endless nights
bursting with dreams
and fill your life with love
and wildflowers
and songs of hope.
make your life
something beautiful
and plant grace and joy
in the gardens of your soul
and make your dreams bloom
and take your feet
to where they’ve never been
and find your home.
make your life
something beautiful
and fall in love
with the little things
like singing birds
and raindrops
and laughter.
make your life
something beautiful
and live wildly,
without fear,
with only wonder and light
and love and joy.

loved, so loved.

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i want to be wild. to leave trails
of stars and spring and
rain and light and
glory behind me.
to never settle. to never forget
who i am
who i was
who i’ll be,
who made me
and why my heart beats.
to let the sun make my soul its home.
to let freedom run in my blood, to look at the sky and to find the
stars
smiling down at me.
to let drops of rain
soak me.
to feel, to know that i am alive, that this heart of mine was meant
to beat.
to believe that i am
loved,
so loved.
and to know that my eyes were meant to see glory, to know that the
darkness
does
not
own
me.
to know in my heart, my soul, my bones, my inmost being
that i am a child of the Light, a daughter of the sunrise and
loved,
so loved.
to know that this life of mine was made on
purpose,
that my eyes
blink
and i
breathe
and my feet
walk
and my heart
loves
because it is what
i
was
made
for.
to know that i am not
a mistake, i am not a failure.
i am my dreams and my
laughter and my
tears and my
hopes and i am
loved,
so loved.

A Rainbow of Choices

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Last year, I’d been trying to get God to speak to me. To tell me what He wanted me to do. I wanted Him to answer me clearly. I wanted Him to make his will really obvious to me. I prayed to Him so hard about college, about staying home or studying abroad. I wanted Him to tell me what I was supposed to do with my life. I wanted Him to tell me how He wanted me to serve Him. I wanted his answer to be crystal clear. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed.

And He was silent.

He was silent, and I was frustrated. How was I supposed to move forward?

I talked to my friend Jennie about this. (She’s smart. And talented with words. I love her. A lot.) And she told me this:

“Freedom can be scary but it’s also beautiful. And if we always knew the answers and what steps to take, we’d have no need for faith and trust. So remember this: Seek Him first. Don’t get frustrated when He isn’t making it black and white because He’s given you beautiful colors in your rainbow of choices. Seek Him, acknowledge Him. Talk to wise counsel. Trust the Holy Spirit to lead you. Remember too, this is your choice, this is your life.”

And then, all of a sudden, lightbulb moment. The reason God was silent is because He has given me freedom. He wants me to glorify Him freely. I am free to worship him in the way my heart desires. I am free to live out my art.

Writing poetry. Making gabydoodles. Singing. Encouraging people. Blogging. Going to college here in Santo Domingo. Going to college in the United States. What I do doesn’t matter. I am free to live out my art.

Listen, friend. Stop waiting for God to make things clear for you. It might not happen. It might not happen because He’s already made things clear. He’s given you freedom. God doesn’t really care about what you choose to do as long as it gives Him glory. As long as it points back to Him, you’re free to be you. He won’t leave you alone. He won’t forsake you. But He will give you freedom. He will make you brave. He’s going to let you go places you’ve never been before. He’s going to let you do things you haven’t done yet. He’s going to give you the desires of your heart. But He won’t tell you. He’ll let you find out for yourself.

And that is awesome. And scary. But mostly awesome.

But it’s freedom. And it’s yours. And it is the opportunity to try new things, to take chances, to fall in love with things you didn’t know before. It’s freedom. It means you can go and take a leap of faith and do what your heart’s been aching to do. It’s freedom. It means that you don’t have to settle for a life in black and white. It’s freedom. And it means you have been given a white canvas and an endless palette of colors to paint your life with.

It’s freedom. It’s a rainbow of choices. And it’s yours.

all i ever wanted {a poem}

all i ever wanted
was to be loved by You
and instead You
made your heart my home
You kissed my tears away
and filled the void in my soul
and turned my sorrow into dancing
and made my brokenness beautiful
and placed a crown on my head
and called me yours.
all i wanted was your love
and You gave me life.